Last Wednesay I had my laparoscopy. Last Wednesday I faced my fear of anasthestic. Last Wednesday I welcomed something into my life that I am forced to live with for many years to come.
One of the hardest things I have to face is the question - are you feeling better now? Because as stupid as the answer sounds, no I am not. This is a chronic illness that cannot be cured. I will always be ill, I just have to learn to manage and adapt to it. I will work with it so that it shall be a part of me but never define me.
The good thing about this is it is known as the 'invisible disease' so when you see me I won't look ill. I will smile, I will laugh and I will be happy. That's who I am, no matter what is growing inside of me.
This is a not so glam picture from after my surgery - Drugged up but still smiling!
I am finding this blog really difficult to write, I have wanted to blog for a couple of days but in all honesty I haven't quite got my head around this yet, so to talk about it is really odd.
For now I will make this short, and I'll try to write more in the week.
Thank you to all my friends, family, and endo girls for your support.